I sit upon her alter
and pray
What the fuck is going on?!
The clarity escapes me
and yet
I track it
finding myself in
another realm
having conversations with
out of this world
beings.
I sit upon the alter
and chant my prayer
calling in guidance
my body trembles
my heart blasts open
I merge with this being
we become one.
A power house of a woman
Amazonian Star Being
fused
with
me!!
Time to go buy some
kick ass red boots!
September 23, 2010
I wrote the preceding poem when I was in the desert. I have been moving towards building an Earth Bag Dome Home on two and half acres I have in Joshua Tree. At the time of this writing, I was starting the first of many weekly commutes from the beach to the desert and desert to the beach. At the same timing, my daughters have recently bloomed into independent teenagers and I was finding myself twisted and tormented by this growth of having children growing up.
I was frustrated with my exercise and meditation routines being shifted during my latest transitions and knowing that all I had to do was comitt myself and set intent to creating new routines. This morning in the desert as the sun was rising I rose out of bed, kissed my beloved, got dressed and put on my hiking shoes, grabbed tobacco for offerings and set out for the hike into the Joshua Tree National Forest. Just before I left I greeted the sun with a glass of water and began my ten minute walk toward the park.
I am continually in awe of the simplicity and power of our intentions, prayers and ritual. On that day began to settle into new routine possibilities and called in a new guide and, most of all, I made peace with with the growth in my life. Yup, we’re going boot shopping!!!